this isn't exactly what I thought I would be saying

I have been keeping a journal since the ICE agents came to search our house; I thought blogging would be a bit like that. It is not. Writing blog posts is like trying to fill a bud vase with a fire hose. I try to concentrate on a narrow area and find myself blasted backward by the force of tangents jostling for attention. The focus is gone and I'm left trying to mop up the mess.